18 TiLL I dIE

In adulthood, you try to remember all the stupid stuff you did as a kid.

But this is not the case with me, for I am still horribly immature & naive. There is nothing I can recollect I improved upon past 15 years as a sign of maturing up.. And I wonder if it is the deficiency of growth hormones or cells in my cerebrum refuse to multiply.. Or is it that I am immune to mind control?
I am not proving myself to be dumb here.. its just that I dont find myself anytime more pensive.. cautious.. or rational then I ever was..

Or may be I am just too lucky.. and its actually a blessing to be able to live your life this way! carefree..improvident.
Naah ..I would be too optimistic to believe this!

According to Albert Camus (great philosopher), “After a certain age, every man is responsible for his own face.” This is may be true..but I dont find it inspiring.

I remember when I was at home, couple of times.. some salesperson had appeared and said "Child, please call your parents or somebody older from house"... what the hell on earth they think I am...??

And I hate it..hate it.. when I meet an old acquaintance only to hear "Oh Shweta..You haven't changed a bit". No No No.. they dont anyway mean that I have younger looking skin.. what they imply is how can I still blabber senselessly .. with gestures so deprived of any refinement and countenance lacking miserably of any intelligent-solemn expressions.

Well I dont blame them.. I cant.. for I am in many ways still the same person I use to be ever since my brain tissues formed... and here are the arguments why I dint knife any of them (not my tissues...those maddening people).

1. As a child, my very first ambition was to become a rickshaw-wala.. I use to find rickshaw pulling so amusing.. one gets to ride the tricycle whole day..without even caring to balance it as compare to my silly bicycle.

I dont aspire to be rickshaw puller anymore, but still fancy idea of riding rickshaw one day.

2. My passport till date is unstamped.

3. I whistle while getting ready in the morning & jump down the stairs instead of climbing down.

4. I still eat food with my eyes firmly stuck on TV screen and never on my plate.

5. I repel any responsibility.. any damn discipline & loves to be pampered.

6. My hearty laugh can easily remind you of an old hindi film shantaan.

7. I almost always feels grass is greener on the other side of the fence.. for example, all those who born in United kingdom are living life king size.., software jobs are worst.. staying single is best.., to be working is curse... list is endless.

8. I am still under the impression that given the opportunity (say US presidency) I can change the world.

9. When I cry I make sure somebody can hear it.

10. I still love to decorate my book shelf with good number of colorful books.. nevertheless they are awaiting to be read.

11. For any anxious moments.. my nails pay the price (I mean my fingernails :D).

12. I cant fast.. but can eat after every 2 hours.

13. Couldn't develop taste for wine or a champagne (lost the count of attempts I made).. You can catch me sipping strawberry shakes or orange juice in parties.

14. Miserably crave for anything sugared.. anytime of the day.

15. Everytime I plump myself on couch.. my legs rest on the table.

16. My wardrobe is still anticipating to shelter an elegant evening gown.

17. I gorge myself on parle glucose biscuits and maggie is my fav dish.

18. Most of times I wear socks despite whatever.

19. I am contact-lens handicap.. so lookout the world through my awful thick glasses.

20. When I was in class 7.. I fell in love with Tom Cruise.. crush never got over.

21. My mobile always goes missing.. people have stopped calling me.

22. Couldn't even get over my phobia for lizards..

23. After front page of TOI, its the entertainment section which I focus on.

24. I still prefer my scooter to my car.

25. I hate going for morning walk.. as a matter of fact I can't get up early.

26. I dont want to be a parent.. becoz once you are.. you miss all the FUN.

27. While watching an interesting movie I end up overeating.

28. Haven't bugged my mind in share market even once.

29. Using same wallet since class 10.

30. I dont pray (there are no exams in my job).

31. My budget equals the money in my notecase.

32. Even now, I visualize Arun Govil & Deepika Chikhalia as Lord Ram & Goddess Sita.

33. Its delightful to get a feel of a smoker in winters .

34. When asked what all I can cook.. tea & coffee tops the list.

35. I test my darting skills with dustbin and garbage.

36. I forward my guest the whole bottle when serving water (This is when I could remember I should ask them for something).

37. I believe world would be over when I will not exist.

38. I still take around 4 seconds to find out which is my left and which is my right side.

39. kicking small rocks on road while walking....yess it thrills me.

40. Feel like scraping off the icicles that form inside the walls of an ancient freezer at my grandma's house.

41. In summers crunching the ice cubes (with sound effects) gives me a high!

42. Synchronizing my steps with someone moving ahead or close to me is so amusing.


It doesn't really make a difference how much I push myself in and out.. this part of me doesn't seems to die out.. Its useless to fake or simulate sophistication.. it has to come innately.. from within!

I can't afford to loose my interest.. my spirit either, to inherit worldliness. Or do life give me bonus if I practice seriousness?

I am fed up.. I have booked tickets of "Wake up Sid".. may be where teachers & family failed, bollywood would make a mark (I heard u asking "where ?"... In My MinD).